Okay so maybe I will gain weight. The last couple of days have been hard for me, I have been feeling sick, which doesn't happen that often so I am mostly grateful. I have also been feeling super tired and like everything in life is overwhelming. So my house is a mess and when I step on the scale it is up 4 pounds. This had been distressing to me when I was feeling good, but I find that when I feel yucky I really don't care. So I think maybe on the days that I feel good I will worry about it and try to be really healthy and on the other days I am pretty sure I won't care a darn thing about it. I am only 9 weeks and I am showing. Since the baby is only 1 inch long I know it isn't the baby showing. All the books say that it is "bowel dissension" I really don't know what this means but it sounds really gross. Which brings me to my next topic of discussion, Why is pregnancy so gross? I mean really we all ready feel awful, get fat, get stretch marks, and have to pee in cups for months on end. Then all of a sudden words like bowel dissension, gas, and constipation are used in conversation with us constantly. This is just the beginning. I know when we come around to delivery I am going to end up practically naked in a big white room with a bunch of strangers watching me puff and groan. It really isn't fair. This baby had better be really cute.
Oh and i am still obsessed with food. Last night I had a dream that someone was eating a grilled cheese sandwich and they threw half of it in the trash. I was so mad in my dream. So after church I ate two grilled cheese sandwiches and they were soooooo yummy. I also had to speak in church today. Now for some reason in my first trimester I always have to pee all the time. So before church I make sure to go to the bathroom thinking that I will be ahead of the game. It was not to be. Literally one minute before I was supposed to get up to talk I had to pee SO BAD, I sat there thinking I am just going to have to suffer through this. It really was not fun. We also went on the youth temple trip yesterday. Now living in Helena we are 31/2 hours from the billings temple and there are a few big stretches of the drive where there is nothing but bushes for 1/2 hour at a time. So i went to the bathroom THREE TIMES before we left. With in an hour of leaving, and of course on one of these half hour stretches i had to pee sooooooo bad. I was really in pain. Pregnancy really isn't fair, but then I guess nothing in life really is. This baby better be really cute.